Ada or Ardor: A Family Chronicle Part 1, Chapter 42 (view annotations) |
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Aqua used to say that only a very cruel or very stupid person, | |
or innocent infants, could be happy on Demonia, our splendid | |
planet. Van felt that for him to survive on this terrible Antiterra, | |
in the multicolored and evil world into which he was born, he | |
301.05 | had to destroy, or at least to maim for life, two men. He had |
to find them immediately; delay itself might impair his power of | |
survival. The rapture of their destruction would not mend his | |
heart, but would certainly rinse his brain. The two men were in | |
two different spots and neither spot represented an exact loca- | |
301.10 | tion, a definite street number, an identifiable billet. He hoped |
to punish them in an honorable way, if Fate helped. He was not | |
prepared for the comically exaggerated zeal Fate was to display | |
in leading him on and then muscling in to become an over- | |
cooperative agent. | |
301.15 | First, he decided to go to Kalugano to settle accounts with |
Herr Rack. Out of sheer misery he fell asleep in a corner of a | |
compartment, full of alien legs and voices, in the crack express | |
tearing north at a hundred miles per hour. He dozed till noon | |
and got off at Ladoga, where after an incalculably long wait | |
301.20 | he took another, even more jerky and crowded train. As he was |
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pushing his unsteady way through one corridor after another, | |
cursing under his breath the window-gazers who did not draw | |
in their bottoms to let him pass, and hopelessly seeking a com- | |
fortable nook in one of the first-class cars consisting of four- | |
302.05 | seat compartments, he saw Cordula and her mother facing each |
other on the window side. The two other places were occupied | |
by a stout, elderly gentleman in an old-fashioned brown wig | |
with a middle parting, and a bespectacled boy in a sailor suit | |
sitting next to Cordula, who was in the act of offering him one | |
302.10 | half of her chocolate bar. Van entered, moved by a sudden very |
bright thought, but Cordula's mother did not recognize him at | |
once, and the flurry of reintroductions combined with a lurch | |
of the train caused Van to step on the prunella-shod foot of the | |
elderly passenger, who uttered a sharp cry and said, indistinctly | |
302.15 | but not impolitely: "Spare my gout (or "take care" or "look |
out"), young man!" | |
"I do not like being addressed as 'young man,'" Van told | |
the invalid in a completely uncalled-for, brutal burst of voice. | |
"Has he hurt you, Grandpa?" inquired the little boy. | |
302.20 | "He has," said Grandpa, "but I did not mean to offend any- |
by my cry of anguish." | |
"Even anguish should be civil," continued Van (while the | |
better Van in him tugged at his sleeve, aghast and ashamed). | |
"Cordula," said the old actress (with the same apropos with | |
302.25 | which she once picked up and fondled a fireman's cat that had |
strayed into Fast Colors in the middle of her best speech), "why | |
don't you go with this angry young demon to the tea-car? I | |
think I'll take my thirty-nine winks now." | |
"What's wrong?" asked Cordula as they settled down in the | |
302.30 | very roomy and rococo "crumpeter," as Kalugano College |
students used to call it in the 'Eighties and 'Nineties. | |
"Everything," replied Van, "but what makes you ask?" | |
"Well, we know Dr. Platonov slightly, and there was ab- |
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solutely no reason for you to be so abominably rude to the dear | |
old man." | |
"I apologize," said Van. "Let us order the traditional tea." | |
"Another queer thing," said Cordula, "is that you actually | |
303.05 | noticed me today. Two months ago you snubbed me." |
"You had changed. You had grown lovely and languorous. | |
You are even lovelier now. Cordula is no longer a virgin! Tell | |
me—do you happen to have Percy de Prey's address? I mean we | |
all know he's invading Tartary—but where could a letter reach | |
303.10 | him? I don't care to ask your snoopy aunt to forward anything.' |
"I daresay the Frasers have it, I'll find out. But where is Van | |
going? Where shall I find Van?" | |
"At home—5 Park Lane, in a day or two. Just now I'm going | |
to Kalugano." | |
303.15 | "That's a gruesome place. Girl?" |
"Man. Do you know Kalugano? Dentist? Best hotel? Con- | |
cert hall? My cousin's music teacher?" | |
She shook her short curls. No—she went there very seldom. | |
Twice to a concert, in a pine forest. She had not been aware | |
303.20 | that Ada took music lessons. How was Ada? |
"Lucette," he said, "Lucette takes or took piano lessons. Okay. | |
Let's dismiss Kalugano. These crumpets are very poor relatives | |
of the Chose ones. You're right, j'ai des ennuis.But you can | |
make me forget them. Tell me something to distract me, though | |
303.25 | you distract me as it is, un petit topinambour as the Teuton |
said in the story. Tell me about your affairs of the heart." | |
She was not a bright little girl. But she was a loquacious and | |
really quite exciting little girl. He started to caress her under the | |
table, but she gently removed his hand, whispering "womenses," | |
303.30 | as whimsically as another girl had done in some other dream. |
He cleared his throat loudly and ordered half-a-bottle of cognac, | |
having the waiter open it in his presence as Demon advised. She | |
talked on and on, and he lost the thread of her discourse, or |
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rather it got enmeshed in the rapid landscape, which his gaze | |
followed over her shoulder, with a sudden ravine recording | |
what Jack said when his wife 'phoned, or a lone tree in a clover | |
field impersonating abandoned John, or a romantic stream | |
304.05 | running down a cliff and reflecting her brief bright affair with |
Marquis Quizz Quisana. | |
A pine forest fizzled out and factory chimneys replaced it. | |
The train clattered past a roundhouse, and slowed down, groan- | |
ing. A hideous station darkened the day. | |
304.10 | "Good Lord," cried Van, "that's my stop." |
He put money on the table, kissed Cordula's willing lips | |
and made for the exit. Upon reaching the vestibule he glanced | |
back at her with a wave of the glove he held—and crashed into | |
somebody who had stooped to pick up a bag: "On n'est pas | |
304.15 | goujat à ce point," observed the latter: a burly military man |
with a reddish mustache and a staff captain's insignia. | |
Van brushed past him, and when both had come down on | |
the platform, glove-slapped him smartly across the face. | |
The captain picked up his cap and lunged at the white-faced, | |
304.20 | black-haired young fop. Simultaneously Van felt somebody em- |
brace him from behind in well-meant but unfair restraint. Not | |
bothering to turn his head he abolished the invisible busybody | |
with a light "piston blow" delivered by the left elbow, while | |
he sent the captain staggering back into his own luggage with | |
304.25 | one crack of the right hand. By now several free-show amateurs |
had gathered around them; so, breaking their circle, Van took | |
his man by the arm and marched him into the waiting room. | |
A comically gloomy porter with a copiously bleeding nose came | |
in after them carrying the captain's three bags, one of them | |
304.30 | under his arm. Cubistic labels of remote and fabulous places |
color-blotted the newer of the valises. Visiting cards were ex- | |
changed. "Demon's son?" grunted Captain Tapper, of Wild | |
Violet Lodge, Kalugano. "Correct," said Van. "I'll put up, I | |
guess, at the Majestic; if not, a note will be left for your second |
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or seconds. You'll have to get me one, I can't very well ask the | |
concierge to do it." | |
While speaking thus, Van chose a twenty dollar piece from | |
a palmful of gold, and gave it with a grin to the damaged old | |
305.05 | porter. "Yellow cotton," Van added: "Up each nostril. Sorry, |
chum." | |
With his hands in his trouser pockets, he crossed the square | |
to the hotel, causing a motor car to swerve stridently on the | |
damp asphalt. He left it standing transom-wise in regard to its | |
305.10 | ordained course, and clawed his way through the revolving door |
of the hotel, feeling if not happier, at least more buoyant, than | |
he had within the last twelve hours. | |
The Majestic, a huge old pile, all grime outside, all leather | |
inside, engulfed him. He asked for a room with a bath, was | |
305.15 | told all were booked by a convention of contractors, tipped the |
desk clerk in the invincible Veen manner, and got a passable | |
suite of three rooms with a mahogany paneled bathtub, an | |
ancient rocking chair, a mechanical piano and a purple canopy | |
over a double bed. After washing his hands, he immediately | |
305.20 | went down to inquire about Rack's whereabouts. The Racks |
had no telephone; they probably rented a room in the suburbs; | |
the concierge looked up at the clock and called some sort of | |
address bureau or lost person department. It proved closed till | |
next morning. He suggested Van ask at a music store on Main | |
305.25 | Street. |
On the way there he acquired his second walking stick: the | |
Ardis Hall silver-knobbed one he had left behind in the Maiden- | |
hair station café. This was a rude, stout article with a convenient | |
grip and an alpenstockish point capable of gouging out translu- | |
305.30 | cent bulging eyes. In an adjacent store he got a suitcase, and |
in the next, shirts, shorts, socks, slacks, pajamas, handkerchiefs, | |
a lounging robe, a pullover and a pair of saffian bedroom slippers | |
fetally folded in a leathern envelope. His purchases were put | |
into the suitcase and sent at once to the hotel. He was about to |
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enter the music shop when he remembered with a start that | |
he had not left any message for Tapper's seconds, so he re- | |
traced his steps. | |
He found them sitting in the lounge and requested them to | |
306.05 | settle matters rapidly—had more important business than |
that. "Ne grubit' sekundantam" (never be rude to seconds), | |
said Demon's voice in his mind. Arwin Birdfoot, a lieutenant | |
in the Guards, was blond and flabby, with moist pink lips and | |
a foot-long cigarette holder. Johnny Rafin, Esq., was small, | |
306.10 | dark and dapper and wore blue suede shoes with a dreadful tan |
suit. Birdfoot soon disappeared, leaving Van to work out details | |
with Johnny, who, though loyally eager to assist Van, could | |
not conceal that his heart belonged to Van's adversary. | |
The Captain was a first-rate shot, Johnny said, and member | |
306.15 | of the Do-Re-La country club. Bloodthirsty brutishness did |
not come with his Britishness, but his military and academic | |
standing demanded he defend his honor. He was an expert on | |
maps, horses, horticulture. He was a wealthy landlord. The | |
merest adumbration of an apology on Baron Veen's part would | |
306.20 | clinch the matter with a token of gracious finality. |
"If," said Van, "the good Captain expects that, he can go and | |
stick his pistol up his gracious anality." | |
"That is not a nice way of speaking," said Johnny, wincing. | |
"My friend would not approve of it. We must remember he is | |
306.25 | a very refined person." |
Was Johnny Van's second, or the Captain's? | |
"I'm yours," said Johnny with a languid look. | |
Did he or the refined Captain know a German-born pianist, | |
Philip Rack, married, with three babies (probably)? | |
306.30 | "I'm afraid," said Johnny, with a note of disdain, "that I |
don't know many people with babies in Kalugano." | |
Was there a good whorehouse in the vicinity? | |
With increasing disdain Johnny answered he was a confirmed | |
bachelor. |
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"Well, all right," said Van."I have now to go out again be- | |
fore the shops close. Shall I acquire a brace of dueling pistols | |
or will the Captain lend me an army 'bruger'?" | |
"We can supply the weapons," said Johnny. | |
307.05 | When Van arrived in front of the music shop, he found it |
locked. He stared for a moment at the harps and the guitars | |
and the flowers in silver vases on consoles receding in the dusk | |
of looking-glasses, and recalled the schoolgirl whom he had | |
longed for so keenly half a dozen years ago—Rose? Roza? | |
307.10 | Was that her name? Would he have been happier with her |
than with his pale fatal sister? | |
He walked for a while along Main Street—one of a million | |
Main Streets—and then, with a surge of healthy hunger, entered | |
a passably attractive restaurant. He ordered a beefsteak with | |
307.15 | roast potatoes, apple pie and claret. At the far end of the room, |
on one of the red stools of the burning bar, a graceful harlot | |
in black—tight bodice, wide skirt, long black gloves, black- | |
velvet picture hat—was sucking a golden drink through a straw. | |
In the mirror behind the bar, amid colored glints, he caught a | |
307.20 | blurred glimpse of her russety blond beauty; he thought he |
might sample her later on, but when he glanced again she had | |
gone. | |
He ate, drank, schemed. | |
He looked forward to the encounter with keen exhilaration. | |
307.25 | Nothing more invigorating could have been imagined. Shoot- |
ing it out with that incidental clown furnished unhoped-for | |
relief, particularly since Rack would no doubt accept a plain | |
thrashing in lieu of combat. Designing and re-designing various | |
contingencies pertaining to that little duel might be compared | |
307.30 | to those helpful hobbies which polio patients, lunatics and con- |
victs are taught by generous institutions, by enlightened ad- | |
ministrators, by ingenious psychiatrists—such as bookbinding, | |
or putting blue beads into the orbits of dolls made by other | |
criminals, cripples and madmen. |
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At first he toyed with the idea of killing his adversary: quan- | |
titively, it would afford him the greatest sense of release; | |
qualitatively, it suggested all sorts of moral and legal com- | |
plications. Inflicting a wound seemed an inept half-measure. He | |
308.05 | decided to do something artistic and tricky, such as shooting the |
pistol out of the fellow's hand, or parting for him his thick | |
brushy hair in the middle. | |
On his way back to the gloomy Majestic he acquired various | |
trifles: three round cakes of soap in an elongated box, shaving | |
308.10 | cream in its cold resilient tube, ten safety-razor blades, a large |
sponge, a smaller soaping sponge of rubber, hair lotion, a comb, | |
Skinner's Balsam, a toothbrush in a plastic container, tooth- | |
paste, scissors, a fountain pen, a pocket diary—what else?—yes, | |
a small alarm clock—whose comforting presence, however, | |
308.15 | did not prevent him from telling the concierge to have him |
called at five a.m. | |
It was only nine p.m. in late summer; he would not have | |
been surprised if told it was midnight in October. He had had an | |
unbelievably long day. The mind could hardly grasp the fact | |
308.20 | that this very morning, at dawn, a fey character out of some |
Dormilona novel for servant maids had spoken to him, half- | |
naked and shivering, in the toolroom of Ardis Hall. He won- | |
dered if the other girl still stood, arrow straight, adored and | |
abhorred, heartless and heartbroken, against the trunk of a mur- | |
308.25 | muring tree. He wondered if in view of tomorrow's partie de |
de plaisir he should not prepare for her a when-you-receive-this | |
note, flippant, cruel, as sharp as an icicle. No. Better write to | |
Demon. | |
Dear Dad, | |
308.30 | in consequence of a trivial altercation with a Captain |
Tapper, of Wild Violet Lodge, whom I happened to step | |
upon in the corridor of a train, I had a pistol duel this | |
morning in the woods near Kalugano and am now no |
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perfect stool, took a quick bath, briskly dressed, left his bag | |
with the concierge, paid his bill and at six punctually squeezed | |
himself next to blue-chinned and malodorous Johnny into the | |
latter's Paradox, a cheap "semi-racer." For two or three miles | |
310.05 | they skirted the dismal bank of the lake—coal piles, shacks, boat- |
houses, a long strip of black pebbly mud and, in the distance, | |
over the curving bank of autumnally misted water, the tawny | |
fumes of tremendous factories. | |
"Where are we now, Johnny dear?" asked Van as they swung | |
310.10 | out of the lake's orbit and sped along a suburban avenue with |
clapboard cottages among laundry-lined pines. | |
"Dorofey Road," cried the driver above the din of the motor. | |
"It abuts at the forest." | |
It abutted. Van felt a faint twinge in his knee where he had | |
310.15 | hit it against a stone when attacked from behind a week ago, in |
another wood. At the moment his foot touched the pine- | |
needle strewn earth of the forest road, a transparent white | |
butterfly floated past, and with utter certainty Van knew that | |
he had only a few minutes to live. | |
310.20 | He turned to his second and said: |
"This stamped letter, in this handsome Majestic Hotel en- | |
velope, is addressed, as you see, to my father. I am transferring | |
it to the back pocket of my pants. Please post it at once if the | |
Captain, who I see has arrived in a rather funerary-looking | |
310.25 | limousine, accidentally slaughters me." |
They found a convenient clearing, and the principals, pistol | |
in hand, faced each other at a distance of some thirty paces, in | |
the kind of single combat described by most Russian novelists | |
and by practically all Russian novelists of gentle birth. As Arwin | |
310.30 | clapped his hands, informally signaling the permission to fire at |
will, Van noticed a speckled movement on his right: two little | |
spectators—a fat girl and a boy in a sailorsuit, wearing glasses, | |
with a basket of mushrooms between them. It was not the | |
chocolate-muncher in Cordula's compartment, but a boy very |
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much like him, and as this flashed through Van's mind he felt | |
the jolt of the bullet ripping off, or so it felt, the entire left side | |
of his torso. He swayed, but regained his balance, and with | |
nice dignity discharged his pistol in the sun-hazy air. | |
311.05 | His heart beat steadily, his spit was clear, his lungs felt in- |
tact, but a fire of pain raged somewhere in his left armpit. Blood | |
oozed through his clothes and trickled down his trouserleg. He | |
sat down, slowly, cautiously, and leaned on his right arm. He | |
dreaded losing consciousness, but, maybe, did faint briefly, | |
311.10 | because next moment he became aware that Johnny had re- |
lieved him of the letter and was in the act of pocketing it. | |
"Tear it up, you idiot," said Van with an involuntary groan. | |
The Captain strolled up and muttered rather gloomily: "I | |
bet you are in no condition to continue, are you?" | |
311.15 | "I bet you can't wait—" began Van: he intended to say: |
'you can't wait to have me slap you again,' but happened to | |
laugh on 'wait' and the muscles of mirth reacted so ex- | |
cruciatingly that he stopped in mid-sentence and bowed his | |
sweating brow. | |
311.20 | Meanwhile, the limousine was being transformed into an |
ambulance by Arwin. Newspapers were dismembered to pro- | |
tect the upholstery, and the fussy Captain added to them what | |
looked like a potato bag or something rotting in a locker, and | |
then after rummaging again in the car trunk and muttering | |
311.25 | about the "bloody mess" (quite a literal statement) decided to |
sacrifice the ancient and filthy macintosh on which a decrepit | |
dear dog had once died on the way to the veterinary. | |
For half a minute Van was sure that he still lay in the car, | |
whereas actually he was in the general ward of Lakeview (Lake- | |
311.30 | view!) Hospital, between two series of variously bandaged, |
snoring, raving and moaning men. When he understood this, | |
his first reaction was to demand indignantly that he be trans- | |
ferred to the best private palata in the place and that his suit- | |
case and alpenstock be fetched from the Majestic. His next |
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request was that he be told how seriously he was hurt and how | |
long he was expected to remain incapacitated. His third action | |
was to resume what constituted the sole reason of his having to | |
visit Kalugano (visit Kalugano!). His new quarters, where | |
312.05 | heartbroken kings had tossed in transit, proved to be a replica |
in white of his hotel apartment—white furniture, white carpet, | |
white sparver. Inset, so to speak, was Tatiana, a remarkably | |
pretty and proud young nurse, with black hair and diaphanous | |
skin (some of her attitudes and gestures, and that harmony be- | |
312.10 | tween neck and eyes which is the special, scarcely yet investi- |
gated secret of feminine grace fantastically and agonizingly | |
reminded him of Ada, and he sought escape from that image in | |
a powerful response to the charms of Tatiana, a torturing angel | |
in her own right. Enforced immobility forbade the chase and | |
312.15 | grab of common cartoons. He begged her to massage his legs |
but she tested him with one glance of her grave, dark eyes—and | |
delegated the task to Dorofey, a beefy-handed male nurse, strong | |
enough to lift him bodily out of bed, with the sick child clasping | |
the massive nape. When Van managed once to twiddle her | |
312.20 | breasts, she warned him she would complain if he ever repeated |
what she dubbed more aptly than she thought "that soft dangle." | |
An exhibition of his state with a humble appeal for a healing | |
caress resulted in her drily remarking that distinguished gentle- | |
men in public parks got quite lengthy prison terms for that | |
312.25 | sort of thing. However, much later, she wrote him a charming |
and melancholy letter in red ink on pink paper; but other emo- | |
tions and events had intervened, and he never met her again). | |
His suitcase promptly arrived from the hotel; the stick, how- | |
ever, could not be located (it must be climbing nowadays | |
312.30 | Wellington Mountain, or perhaps, helping a lady to go "bram- |
bling" in Oregon); so the hospital supplied him with the Third | |
Cane, a rather nice, knotty, cherry-dark thing with a crook | |
and a solid black-rubber heel. Dr Fitzbishop congratulated him | |
on having escaped with a superficial muscle wound, the bullet |
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gently propelled Van, past two screened beds, toward a third | |
one near the window. There he left Van, while he seated him- | |
self at a small table in the door corner and leisurely unfolded | |
the Russian-language newspaper Golos (Logos). | |
314.05 | "I am Van Veen—in case you are no longer lucid enough to |
recognize somebody you have seen only twice. Hospital records | |
put your age at thirty; I thought you were younger, but even | |
so that is a very early age for a person to die—whatever he be | |
tvoyu mat'—half-baked genius or full-fledged scoundrel, or | |
314.10 | both. As you may guess by the plain but thoughtful trappings |
of this quiet room, you are an incurable case in one lingo, a | |
rotting rat in another. No oxygen gadget can help you to | |
eschew the "agony of agony"—Professor Lamort's felicitous | |
pleonasm. The physical torments you will be, or indeed are, | |
314.15 | experiencing must be prodigious, but are nothing in comparison |
to those of a probable hereafter. The mind of man, by nature a | |
monist, cannot accept two nothings; he knows there has been | |
one nothing, his biological inexistence in the infinite past, for | |
his memory is utterly blank, and that nothingness, being, as it | |
314.20 | were, past, is not too hard to endure. But a second nothingness— |
which perhaps might not be so hard to bear either—is logically | |
unacceptable. When speaking of space we can imagine a live | |
speck in the limitless oneness of space; but there is no analogy | |
in such a concept with our brief life in time, because however | |
314.25 | brief (a thirty-year span is really obscenely brief!), our aware- |
ness of being is not a dot in eternity, but a slit, a fissure, a chasm | |
running along the entire breadth of metaphysical time, bisecting | |
it and shining—no matter how narrowly—between the back | |
panel and fore panel. Therefore, Mr Rack, we can speak of | |
314.30 | past time, and in a vaguer, but familiar sense, of future time, but |
we simply cannot expect a second nothing, a second void, a | |
second blank. Oblivion is a one-night performance; we have | |
been to it once, there will be no repeat. We must face therefore | |
the possibility of some prolonged form of disorganized con- |
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sciousness and this brings me to my main point, Mr Rack. | |
Eternal Rack, infinite 'Rackness' may not be much but one | |
thing is certain: the only consciousness that persists in the here- | |
after is the consciousness of pain. The little Rack of today is | |
315.05 | the infinite rack of tomorrow—ich bin ein unverbesserlicher |
Witzbold. We can imagine—I think we should imagine—tiny | |
clusters of particles still retaining Rack's personality, gathering | |
here and there in the here-and-there-after, clinging to each | |
other, somehow, somewhere, a web of Rack's toothaches here, | |
315.10 | a bundle of Rack's nightmares there—rather like tiny groups |
of obscure refugees from some obliterated country huddling | |
together for a little smelly warmth, for dingy charities or | |
shared recollections of nameless tortures' in Tartar camps. For | |
an old man one special little torture must be to wait in a long | |
315.15 | long queue before a remote urinal. Well, Herr Rack, I submit |
that the surviving cells of aging Rackness will form such lines | |
of torment, never, never reaching the coveted filth hole in the | |
panic and pain of infinite night. You may answer, of course, if | |
you are versed in contemporary novelistics, and if you fancy | |
315.20 | the jargon of English writers, that a 'lower-middle-class' piano |
tuner who falls in love with a fast 'upper-class' girl, thereby | |
destroying his own family, is not committing a crime deserving | |
the castigation which a chance intruder—" | |
With a not unfamiliar gesture, Van tore up his prepared | |
315.25 | speech and said: |
"Mr Rack, open your eyes. I'm Van Veen. A visitor." | |
The hollow-cheeked, long-jawed face, wax-pale, with a fat- | |
tish nose and a small round chin, remained expressionless | |
for a moment; but the beautiful, amber, liquid, eloquent eyes | |
315.30 | with pathetically long lashes had opened. Then a faint smile |
glimmered about his mouth parts, and he stretched one hand, | |
without raising his head from the oil-cloth-covered pillow | |
(why oil-cloth?). | |
Van, from his chair, extended the end of his cane, which the |
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weak hand took, and palpated politely, thinking it was a well- | |
meant offer of support. "No, I am not yet able to walk a few | |
steps," Rack said quite distinctly, with the German accent | |
which would probably constitute his most durable group of | |
316.05 | ghost cells. |
Van drew in his useless weapon. Controlling himself, he | |
thumped it against the footboard of his wheelchair. Dorofey | |
glanced up from his paper, then went back to the article that | |
engrossed him—"A Clever Piggy (from the memoirs of an | |
316.10 | animal trainer)," or else "The Crimean War: Tartar Guerillas |
Help Chinese Troops." A diminutive nurse simultaneously | |
stepped out from behind the farther screen and disappeared | |
again. | |
Will he ask me to transmit a message? Shall I refuse? Shall I | |
316.15 | consent—and not transmit it? |
"Have they all gone to Hollywood already? Please, tell me, | |
Baron von Wien." | |
"I don't know," answered Van. "They probably have. I | |
really—" | |
316.20 | "Because I sent my last flute melody, and a letter for all the |
family, and no answer has come. I must vomit now. I ring my- | |
self." | |
The diminutive nurse on tremendously high white heels pulled | |
forward the screen of Rack's bed, separating him from the | |
316.25 | melancholy, lightly wounded, stitched-up, clean-shaven young |
dandy; who was rolled out and away by efficient Dorofey. | |
Upon returning to his cool bright room, with the rain and the | |
sun mingling in the half-open window, Van walked on rather | |
ephemeral feet to the looking-glass, smiled to himself in wel- | |
316.30 | come, and without Dorofey's assistance went back to bed. |
Lovely Tatiana glided in, and asked if he wanted some tea. | |
"My darling," he said, "I want you. Look at this tower of | |
strength!" |
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"If you knew," she said, over her shoulder, "how many | |
prurient patients have insulted me—exactly that way." | |
He wrote Cordula a short letter, saying he had met with a | |
little accident, was in the suite for fallen princes in Lakeview | |
317.05 | Hospital, Kalugano, and would be at her feet on Tuesday. He |
also wrote an even shorter letter to Marina, in French, thanking | |
her for a lovely summer. This, on second thought, he decided | |
to send from Manhattan to the Pisang Palace Hotel in Los | |
Angeles. A third letter he addressed to Bernard Rattner, his | |
317.10 | closest friend at Chose, the great Rattner's nephew. 'Your |
uncle has most honest standards,' he wrote, in part, 'but I am | |
going to demolish him soon.' | |
On Monday around noon he was allowed to sit in a deck- | |
chair, on the lawn, which he had avidly gazed at for some days | |
317.15 | from his window. Dr Fitzbishop had said, rubbing his hands, |
that the Luga laboratory said it was the not always lethal | |
"arethusoides" but it had no practical importance now, because | |
the unfortunate music teacher, and composer, was not expected | |
to spend another night on Demonia, and would be on Terra, | |
317.20 | ha-ha, in time for evensong. Doc Fitz was what Russians call a |
poshlyak ("pretentious vulgarian") and in some obscure counter- | |
fashion Van was relieved not to be able to gloat over the | |
wretched Rack's martyrdom. | |
A large pine tree cast its shadow upon him and his book. He | |
317.25 | had borrowed it from a shelf holding a medley of medical man- |
uals, tattered mystery tales, the Rivière de Diamants collection | |
of Monparnasse stories, and this odd volume of the Journal of | |
Modern Science with a difficult essay by Ripley, "The Structure | |
of Space." He had been wrestling with its phoney formulas and | |
317.30 | diagrams for several days now and saw he would not be able to |
assimilate it completely before his release from Lakeview Hos- | |
pital on the morrow. | |
A hot sunfleck reached him, and tossing the red volume aside, |
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he got up from his chair. With the return of health the image | |
of Ada kept rising within him like a bitter and brilliant wave, | |
ready to swallow him. His bandages had been removed; noth- | |
ing but a special vest-like affair of flannel enveloped his torso, | |
318.05 | and though it was tight and thick it did not protect him any |
longer from the poisoned point of Ardis. Arrowhead Manor. | |
Le Château de la Flèche, Flesh Hall. | |
He strolled on the shade-streaked lawn feeling much too | |
warm in his black pajamas and dark-red dressing gown. A brick | |
318.10 | wall separated his part of the garden from the street and a little |
way off an open gateway allowed an asphalt drive to curve | |
toward the main entrance of the long hospital building. He | |
was on the point of returning to his deckchair when a smart, | |
pale-gray four-door sedan glided in and stopped before him. | |
318.15 | The door flew open, before the chauffeur, an elderly man in |
tunic and breeches, had time to hand out Cordula, who now | |
ran like a ballerina toward Van. He hugged her in a frenzy of | |
welcome, kissing her rosy hot face and kneading her soft cat- | |
like body through her black silk dress: what a delicious surprise! | |
318.20 | She had come all the way from Manhattan, at a hundred |
kilometers an hour, fearing he might have already left, though | |
he said it would be tomorrow. | |
"Idea!" he cried. "Take me back with you, right away. Yes, | |
just as I am!" | |
318.25 | "Okay," she said, "come and stay at my flat, there's a beauty- |
ful guest room for you." | |
She was a good sport—little Cordula de Prey. Next moment | |
he was sitting beside her in the car, which was backing gateward. | |
Two nurses came running and gesturing toward them, and the | |
318.30 | chauffeur asked in French if the Countess wished him to stop. |
"Non, non, non!" cried Van in high glee and they sped away. | |
Panting, Cordula said: | |
"My mother rang me up from Malorukino" (their country | |
estate at Malbrook, Mayne): "the local papers said you had |
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fought a duel. You look a tower of health, I'm so glad. I knew | |
something nasty must have happened because little Russel, Dr. | |
Platonov's grandson—remember?—saw you from his side of the | |
train beating up an officer on the station platform. But, first of | |
319.05 | all, Van, net, pozhaluysta, on nas vidit (no, please, he sees us), |
I have some very bad news for you. Young Fraser, who has | |
just been flown back from Yalta, saw Percy killed on the second | |
day of the invasion, less than a week after they had left Good- | |
son airport. He will tell you the whole story himself, it accumu- | |
319.10 | lates more and more dreadful details with every telling, Fraser |
does not seem to have shined in the confusion, that's why, I | |
suppose, he keeps straightening things out." | |
(Bill Fraser, the son of Judge Fraser, of Wellington, wit- | |
nessed Lieutenant de Prey's end from a blessed ditch overgrown | |
319.15 | with cornel and medlar, but, of course, could do nothing to |
help the leader of his platoon and this for a number of reasons | |
which he conscientiously listed in his report but which it would | |
be much too tedious and embarrassing to itemize here. Percy | |
had been shot in the thigh during a skirmish with Khazar | |
319.20 | guerillas in a ravine near Chew-Foot-Calais, as the American |
troops pronounced 'Chufutkale,' the name of a fortified rock. | |
He had, immediately assured himself, with the odd relief of the | |
doomed, that he had got away with a flesh wound. Loss of blood | |
caused him to faint, as we fainted, too, as soon as he started to | |
319.25 | crawl or rather squirm toward the shelter of the oak scrub and |
spiny bushes, where another casualty was resting comfortably. | |
When a couple of minutes later, Percy—still Count Percy de | |
Prey—regained consciousness he was no longer alone on his | |
rough bed of gravel and grass. A smiling old Tartar, incon- | |
319.30 | gruously but somehow assuagingly wearing American blue-jeans |
with his beshmet, was squatting by his side. "Bednïy, bednïy" | |
(you poor, poor fellow), muttered the good soul, shaking his | |
shaven head and clucking: "Bol'no (it hurts)?" Percy answered | |
in his equally primitive Russian that he did not feel too badly |
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wounded: "Karasho, karasho ne bol'no (good, good)," said the | |
kindly old man and, picking up the automatic pistol which | |
Percy had dropped, he examined it with naive pleasure and then | |
shot him in the temple. (One wonders, one always wonders, | |
320.05 | what had been the executed individual's brief, rapid series of |
impressions, as preserved somewhere, somehow, in some vast | |
library of microfilmed last thoughts, between two moments: | |
between, in the present case, our friend's becoming aware of | |
those nice, quasi-Red Indian little wrinkles beaming at him out | |
320.10 | of a serene sky not much different from Ladore's, and then |
feeling the mouth of steel violently push through tender skin | |
and exploding bone. One supposes it might have been a kind of | |
suite for flute, a series of 'movements' such as, say: I'm alive | |
—who's that?—civilian—sympathy—thirsty—daughter with | |
320.15 | pitcher—that's my damned gun—don't...et cetera or rather no |
cetera...while Broken-Arm Bill prayed his Roman deity in a | |
frenzy of fear for the Tartar to finish his job and go. But, of | |
course, an invaluable detail in that strip of thought would have | |
been—perhaps, next to the pitcher peri—a glint, a shadow, a | |
320.20 | stab of Ardis.) |
"How strange, how strange," murmured Van when Cordula | |
had finished her much less elaborate version of the report Van | |
later got from Bill Fraser. | |
What a strange coincidence! Either Ada's lethal shafts were | |
320.25 | at work, or he, Van, had somehow managed to dispatch her |
two wretched lovers in a duel with a dummy. | |
Strange, too, that he felt nothing special, except, perhaps, a | |
kind of neutral wonder, as he listened to little Cordula. A one- | |
track man in matters of soft passion, strange Van, strange | |
320.30 | Demon's son, was at the moment much more anxious to enjoy |
Cordula as soon as humanly and humanely possible, as soon as | |
satanically and viatically feasible, than to keep deploring the | |
fate of a fellow he hardly knew; and although Cordula's blue | |
eyes flashed with tears once or twice, he knew perfectly well |
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that she had never seen much of her second cousin and, in point | |
of fact, had rather disliked him. | |
Cordula told Edmond: "Arrêtez près de what's-it-called, yes, | |
Albion, le store pour messieurs, in Luga"; and as peeved Van | |
321.05 | remonstrated: "You can't go back to civilization in pajamas," |
she said firmly. "I shall buy you some clothes, while Edmond | |
has a mug of coffee." | |
She bought him a pair of trousers, and a raincoat. He had | |
been waiting impatiently in the parked car and now under the | |
321.10 | pretext of changing into his new clothes asked her to drive him |
to some secluded spot, while Edmond, wherever he was, had | |
another mug. | |
As soon as they reached a suitable area he transferred Cordula | |
to his lap and had her very comfortably, with such howls of | |
321.15 | enjoyment that she felt touched and flattered. |
"Reckless Cordula," observed reckless Cordula cheerfully; | |
"this will probably mean another abortion—encore un petit | |
enfantôme, as my poor aunt's maid used to wail every time it | |
happened to her. Did I say anything wrong?" | |
321.20 | "Nothing wrong," said Van, kissing her tenderly; and they |
drove back to the diner. |
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