Ada or Ardor: A Family Chronicle Part 3, Chapter 4 (annotations forthcoming) |
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A teasy problem demanded Dr. Veen’s presence in England. | |
Old Paar of Chose had written him that the “Clinic” would | |
like him to study a singular case of chromesthesia, but that given | |
certain aspects of the case (such as a faint possibility of trickery) | |
468.05 | Van should come and decide for himself whether he thought it |
worth the trouble to fly the patient to Kingston for further ob- | |
servation. One Spencer Muldoon, born eyeless, aged forty, | |
single, friendless, and the third blind character in this chron- | |
icle, had been known to hallucinate during fits of violent | |
468.10 | paranoia, calling out the names of such shapes and substances |
as he had learned to identify by touch, or thought he recog- | |
nized through the awfulness of stories about them (falling trees, | |
extinct saurians) and which now pressed on him from all sides, | |
alternating with periods of stupor, followed invariably by a | |
468.15 | return to his normal self, when for a week or two he would |
finger his blind books or listen, in red-lidded bliss, to records | |
of music, bird songs, and Irish poetry. | |
His ability to break space into ranks and files of “strong” | |
and “weak” things in what seemed a wallpaper pattern remained | |
468.20 | a mystery until one evening, when a research student (R.S.— |
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he wished to remain that way), who intended to trace certain | |
graphs having to do with the metabasis of another patient, hap- | |
pened to leave within Muldoon’s reach one of those elongated | |
boxes of new, unsharpened, colored-chalk pencils whose mere | |
469.05 | evocation (Dixon Pink Anadel!) make one’s memory speak |
in the language of rainbows, the tints of their painted and | |
polished woods being graded spectrally in their neat tin con- | |
tainer. Poor Muldoon’s childhood could not come to him with | |
anything like such iridian recall, but when his groping fingers | |
469.10 | opened the box and palpated the pencils, a certain expression of |
sensual relish appeared on his parchment-pale face. Upon ob- | |
serving that the blind man’s eyebrows went up slightly at red, | |
higher at orange, still higher at the shrill scream of yellow and | |
then stepped down through the rest of the prismatic spectrum, | |
469.15 | R.S. casually told him that the woods were dyed differently— |
“red,” “orange,” “yellow,” et cetera, and quite as casually | |
Muldoon rejoined that they also felt different one from another. | |
In the course of several tests conducted by R.S. and his | |
colleagues, Muldoon explained that by stroking the pencils in | |
469.20 | turn he perceived a gamut of “stingles,” special sensations some- |
how allied to the tingling aftereffects of one’s skin contact with | |
stinging nettles (he had been raised in the country somewhere | |
between Ormagh and Armagh, and had often tumbled, in his | |
adventurous boyhood, the poor thick-booted soul, into ditches | |
469.25 | and even ravines), and spoke eerily of the “strong” green stingle |
of a piece of blotting paper or the wet weak pink tingle of | |
nurse Langford’s perspiring nose, these colors being checked | |
by himself against those applied by the researchers to the | |
initial pencils. In result of the tests, one was forced to assume | |
469.30 | that the man’s fingertips could convey to his brain “a tactile |
transcription of the prismatic specter” as Paar put it in his | |
detailed report to Van. | |
When the latter arrived, Muldoon had not quite come out | |
of a state of stupor more protracted than any preceding one. |
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Van, hoping to examine him on the morrow, spent a delightful | |
day conferring with a bunch of eager psychologists and was | |
interested to spot among the nurses the familiar squint of Elsie | |
Langford, a gaunt girl with a feverish flush and protruding | |
470.05 | teeth, who had been obscurely involved in a “poltergeist” affair |
at another medical institution. He had dinner with old Paar in | |
his rooms at Chose and told him he would like to have the poor | |
fellow transferred to Kingston, with Miss Langford, as soon as | |
he was fit to travel. The poor fellow died that night in his sleep, | |
470.10 | leaving the entire incident suspended in midair within a nimbus |
of bright irrelevancy. | |
Van, in whom the pink-blooming chestnuts of Chose always | |
induced an amorous mood, decided to squander the sudden | |
bounty of time before his voyage to America on a twenty-four- | |
470.15 | hour course of treatment at the most fashionable and efficient |
of all the Venus Villas in Europe; but during the longish trip | |
in the ancient, plushy, faintly perfumed (musk? Turkish to- | |
bacco?) limousine which he usually got from the Albania, his | |
London hotel, for travels in England, other restless feelings | |
470.20 | joined, without dispelling it, his sullen lust. Rocking along softly, |
his slippered foot on a footrest, his arm in an armloop, he re- | |
called his first railway journey to Ardis and tried—what he | |
sometimes advised a patient doing in order to exercise the | |
“muscles of consciousness”—namely putting oneself back not | |
470.25 | merely into the frame of mind that had preceded a radical |
change in one’s life, but into a state of complete ignorance re- | |
garding that change. He knew it could not be done, that not | |
the achievement, but the obstinate attempt was possible, because | |
he would not have remembered the preface to Ada had not life | |
470.30 | turned the next page, causing now its radiant text to flash |
through all the tenses of the mind. He wondered if he would | |
remember the present commonplace trip. An English late spring | |
with literary associations lingered in the evening air. The built- | |
in “canoreo” (an old-fashioned musical gadget which a joint |
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Anglo-American Commission had only recently unbanned) | |
transmitted a heart-wounding Italian song. What was he? Who | |
was he? Why was he? He thought of his slackness, clumsiness, | |
dereliction of spirit. He thought of his loneliness, of its passions | |
471.05 | and dangers. He saw through the glass partition the fat, healthy, |
reliable folds of his driver’s neck. Idle images queued by | |
—Edmund, Edmond, simple Cordula, fantastically intricate | |
Lucette, and, by further mechanical association, a depraved little | |
girl called Lisette, in Cannes, with breasts like lovely abscesses, | |
471.10 | whose frail favors were handled by a smelly big brother in an |
old bathing machine. | |
He turned off the canoreo and helped himself to the brandy | |
stored behind a sliding panel, drinking from the bottle, because | |
all three glasses were filthy. He felt surrounded by crashing | |
471.15 | great trees, and the monstrous beasts of unachieved, perhaps |
unachievable tasks. One such task was Ada whom he knew he | |
would never give up; to her he would surrender the remnants | |
of his self at the first trumpet blast of destiny. Another was his | |
philosophic work, so oddly impeded by its own virtue—by that | |
471.20 | originality of literary style which constitutes the only real |
honesty of a writer. He had to do it his own way, but the | |
cognac was frightful, and the history of thought bristled with | |
clichés, and it was that history he had to surmount. | |
He knew he was not quite a savant, but completely an artist. | |
471.25 | Paradoxically and unnecessarily it had been in his “academic |
career,” in his nonchalent and arrogant lectures, in his conduct | |
of seminars, in his published reports on sick minds, that, start- | |
ing as something of a prodigy before he was twenty, he had | |
gained by the age of thirty-one “honors” and a “position” that | |
471.30 | many unbelievably laborious men do not reach at fifty. In his |
sadder moments, as now, he attributed at least part of his | |
“success” to his rank, to his wealth, to the numerous donations, | |
which (in a kind of extension of his overtipping the haggard | |
beggars who cleaned rooms, manned lifts, smiled in hotel cor- |
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ridors) he kept showering upon worthwhile institutions and | |
students. Maybe Van Veen did not err too widely in his wry | |
conjecture; for on our Antiterra (and on Terra as well, ac- | |
cording to his own writings) a powerfully plodding Adminis- | |
472.05 | tration prefers, unless moved by the sudden erection of a new |
building or the thunder of torrential funds, the safe drabness | |
of an academic mediocrity to the suspect sparkle of a V.V. | |
Nightingales sang, when he arrived at his fabulous and ignoble | |
destination. As usual, he experienced a surge of brutal elation | |
472.10 | as the car entered the oak avenue between two rows of phal- |
lephoric statues presenting arms. A welcome habitué of fifteen | |
years’ standing, he had not bothered to “telephone” (the new | |
official term). A searchlight lashed him: Alas, he had come on | |
a “gala” night! | |
472.15 | Members usually had their chauffeurs park in a special en- |
closure near the guardhouse, where there was a pleasant canteen | |
for servants, with nonalcoholic drinks and a few inexpensive | |
and homely whores. But that night several huge police cars | |
occupied the garage boxes and overflowed into an adjacent | |
472.20 | arbor. Telling Kingsley to wait a moment under the oaks, Van |
donned his bautta and went to investigate. His favorite walled | |
walk soon took him to one of the spacious lawns velveting the | |
approach to the manor. The grounds were lividly illuminated | |
and as populous as Park Avenue—an association that came very | |
472.25 | readily, since the disguises of the astute sleuths belonged to a |
type which reminded Van of his native land. Some of those | |
men he even knew by sight—they used to patrol his father’s | |
club in Manhattan whenever good Gamaliel (not reelected | |
after his fourth term) happened to dine there in his informal | |
472.30 | gagality. They mimed what they were accustomed to mime— |
grapefruit vendors, black hawkers of bananas and banjoes, | |
obsolete, or at least untimely, “copying clerks” who hurried in | |
circles to unlikely offices, and peripatetic Russian newspaper | |
readers slowing down to a trance stop and then strolling again |
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behind their wide open Estotskiya Vesti. Van remembered that | |
Mr. Alexander Screepatch, the new president of the United | |
Americas, a plethoric Russian, had flown over to see King | |
Victor; and he correctly concluded that both were now sunk | |
473.05 | in mollitude. The comic side of the detectives’ display (be- |
fitting, perhaps, their dated notion of an American sidewalk, | |
but hardly suiting a weirdly illuminated maze of English hedges) | |
tempered his disappointment as he shuddered squeamishly at the | |
thought of sharing the frolics of historical personages or content- | |
473.10 | ing himself with the brave-faced girlies they had started to use |
and rejected. | |
Here a bedsheeted statue attempted to challenge Van from | |
its marble pedestal but slipped and landed on its back in the | |
bracken. Ignoring the sprawling god, Van returned to the still- | |
473.15 | throbbing jolls-joyce. Purple-jowled Kingsley, an old tried |
friend, offered to drive him to another house, ninety miles | |
north; but Van declined upon principle and was taken back | |
to the Albania. |
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